Fall is here—the season of harvest and plenty. I love fall because of the beauty that can be found and the beautiful crispness to the air. I am also so very glad to spend this fall in the Midwest where there are actually seasons instead of one season—hot—in Santa Cruz.
But this has also been a season of scarcity for me as I start a new job and learn how to live on my own on a barista’s budget. I am so ready for another job, but until God provides, I’m trying to enjoy all that He’s teaching me. These words from Streams in the Desert yesterday were perfect for me.
Sermon of the Field. This is its solemn word to me. You must die in order to live. You must refuse to consult your own ease and well-being. You must be crucified, not only in desires and habits which are sinful, but in many more which appear innocent and right. If you would save others, you cannot save yourself. If you would bear much fruit, you must be buried in darkness and solitude. My heart fails me as I listen. But, when Jesus asks it, let me tell myself that is my high dignity to enter into the fellowship of His sufferings; and thus I am in the best of company.
I love the line “not only in desires and habits which are sinful, but in many more which appear innocent and right.” I have to examine my heart and ask myself if my desire to help those in South Minneapolis is solely for God’s glory, and if it isn’t, then I must weed out every selfish desire until it is a pure desire, fueled by God’s heart and accomplished for His purposes.
I am grateful for this season in which I must lose myself to gain Christ and thus to help others know Him.