So I was not ready to write anything nice. I was just pretty weepy. And pitying myself. Who has to go an entire year without seeing their incredibly sweet and adorable six year-old twin nieces? Why would God do that to a person?
God would do that to a person He wants to show His glory and joy to. Teaching fifth grade here has probably been the hardest six months of my life. Learning curve. New culture. Mix of cultures in my classroom. Searching for acceptance and finding that it doesn't satisfy. Leaving the closest friendships I have known in my life.
But I have learned more in the last six months than I can yet put into words. I can't even put it all into thoughts yet. I mostly learned things that I knew in my head but clearly hadn't learned in my heart.
I still have to learn to live where I am. My heart still aches for the places that I call home, the family I love in Wisconsin and the life that I was so looking forward to in Minneapolis. But God is teaching me moment by moment how to find joy in Him. Even when I stand in front of twenty eleven year-olds feeling like a failure He is my portion.
And so I no longer have nothing nice to say. I can say that I am grateful for all that I'm learning. I am grateful to be able to attempt to glorify God in front of young students. I am grateful to get to preach the Gospel to them.
And while I'm very excited about the future, I'm going to try my very best to live in the present.
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.
- Hebrews 10:23-24